My Birth Story: Part III

This part was the most traumatizing part for me.

I was expecting that after his birth, blueberry and I will have a moment of tenderness, that he would sweetly and calmly get adjusted to the world in my arms still breathing through his umbilibal cord. But the minute he was out, titou cut his cord while I held him for 5 seconds and they took him away. A nurse and a doctor rushed in, and there were discussions and a big tension in the room.

Even after 2 months, it makes my eyes watery when I think of this. All of a sudden, I was left alone, lying on the cushions, when everybody was doing something to my baby. From where I was, I couldn't see anything. I was yelling, what's going on, what's happening, and nobody was answering. I pulled together all my energy left and got up,  I saw some blood, scissors, and stuff hanging off my body, sarah rushed and made me lie down assuring that everything was OK.

I was trying to talk to him but I was far away. Then I asked claude to talk to him to calm him down. While people were working on him, Claude started telling him sweetly that he was his dad and that he loved him very much, explaining him what was happening, and that he shouldn't be afraid. Of course, all the nurses in the room melted, and so did I. Later, he told me that when he saw him, it was love at first sight.

We found out later on the cause of all the buzz. He had swallowed amniotic fluid,so he was not able to breath. They apparently cleaned his throat, gave him some oxygen, his heartbeat went up then really down. But finally he recovered. His Apgar scores were very low. At the time,  I was VERY  worried but now we joke about the fact that he miserably failed his first tests.

While blueberry was recovering, I still had one last push to do to get rid off the placenta. I gave everything I had, but it didn't work. After 45 minutes of trying, they gave me an injection. Then my midwives told me to thank my placenta for taking good care of my baby and tell it that now it was time to leave my body, and that's what I did. I thanked my placenta and after a big push, it was out.

After about an hour, they finally brought the blueberry to me. In my arms, he looked so tiny, so fragile. I thought he was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen...

can you believe the tininess?