We went to Bodrum,we survived our first plane ride (which will be my next entry), Sevan got to meet the sea and the sun more intimately, on the beach, he rocked his first bathing suit, his crocs (thanks yaya) and his awesome firefighter hat, he was spoiled as much as possible, my family completely fell in love with him, there were tears when we were leaving.
Sevan continues to giggle and nowadays he seems to be fascinated with his fingers... he's still not rolling despite all my mom's efforts :)
Claude and I celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary, there
was my birthday that nobody really remembered, nor cared enough to buy
me a gift (apparently when you are a mother, all the gifts go to the
baby).
I'm feeling a little blah nowadays...Don't know...I feel negative, I think negative...I'm really happy to be back but I'm not in a good mood, must be the coming of the fall
OH Neda... I have been there... I have had those thoughts - that even on your own birthday people will buy things for the baby... I am sorry! Happy birthday! Happy wedding anniversary! This emotional roller coaster will end - I promise. It is hardest with the first... With Isa it was very hard... very very hard... And with Eli I knew what to expect more, I let the emotions come and go without thinking the negative ones were never going to go away... and they went away... it will get lighter, these moments.
ReplyDeleteAs for your chunky monkey, I can't wait till he meets our chunky monkey. They will be so handsome together!!! Travelling with Isa was hard the first few times... now she is seasoned, and Eli is getting seasoned too. More importantly WE are learning how to travel with them, how to shake things off when they don't go as planned, and how to quickly make new plans ;).
Much love from CA. I wish I could be there for you. The earliest we'll be able to come is next fall... We'll celebrate your 3rd year anniversary together. BIG hugs from CA. And we can always skype. I love you dearly. Motherhood is a challenging wonderful role...
May, thank you thank you thank you for your reply!
DeleteI'm very happy normally but you sometimes think and think and the finances, the stress of finding a decent job, the guilt, the guilt, the guilt of not making enough, the guilt, the guilt, the guilt of sending him to a creche, what's more important than him, how can I let other people take care of him, but can I keep him? all these and more..
thank you for knowing where I'm coming from...
and, yes, I'm looking forward to the day we'll celebrate together whatever, an anniversary, a birthday, we miss being with you guys!