But right now, I am so much in hate with breastfeeding and feel so deceived...
I nursed my child for 6 months, exclusively, without a break, despite seeing his acid reflux caused by my milk and feeling guilty, despite seeing his gas cramps and feeling guilty, I changed my diet, no citrus fruits, no dairy products, no gluten, no nuts, no legumes, no this, no that, of course, no coffee, no chocolate and no wine...is it flowing too fast? do I have enough? but I continued...tired, sleepless, exhausted...it was difficult...physically and psychologically...but it was worth it I thought...
after all this is the best he can get, he will be protected and won't get sick...or if he gets sick..he will recover fast...so that we won't need antibiotics..All he needs is in the breastmilk... Right?
WRONG!
2 weeks since he started crèche...It's been 2 weeks of never ending chain of sicknesses... OK, I'm fine with fever, flu, some stomach virus...
This time, it's an ear infection...we found ourselves at the emergency...Now I see my child squealing of pain...Here I am, standing with my big boops, unable to help...
Why? How come?? I thought this wasn't supposed to happen. This was the goal of all these sacrifices...We started antibiotics...
Don't know...I'm bitter right now and tired...It will probably pass tomorrow and I will come to my senses but right now...
Breastmilk, I'm so disappointed in you!
Breastmilk: 0 Crèche virus: 2
Dude, the power of dirty children is a force that cannot be reckoned with - it's a natural law that trumps all things.
ReplyDeleteYour amazing breastmilk is doing what it can to lessen the inevitable devastation.
Imagine if you DIDN'T breastfeed! The sicknesses would've started SOONER!
Even with breastmilk, Isa was sick the first whole month of creche... :( i'm sorry!!! breastmillk can't change the anatomy of ear tubes and that is what is most correlated with ear infections... your milk is still wonderful and doing wonderful things for him. It's not a wonderdrug, it's just a wonderfood...
ReplyDeleteMay and Dizzy Kate are right! Try to not hate breastfeeding, even if you are still in the mood!! And imagine you would have had to prepare, heat, disinfect bottles every time you just has to unpack the breasts!! Plus: Sevan looks so healthy and glowing on the pictures, I don't think that formulae would have worked like that!
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