Confession

Blueberry is at the crèche, I have a presentation in the Netherlands next week so I have to work...but I so don't feel like it

I miss him...I'm spending my time looking at his pictures...

The sickness break from the crèche was a little hard on me, it's almost like we restarted our adaptation...

For the first time in my life I feel very unambitious, I actually don't see the point of presentations, articles, publications, working late at night...I haven't touched the subject of my presentation since his birth.

I was so tempted to cancel this presentation because I know I'm going to ridicule myself and get grilled by the "experts".Who am I to make a  presentation on a subject I barely know on a topic I don't really care? Plus my mother brain works very slowly for poop-unrelated issues. So I won't even be able to pretend like I know what I'm talking about. But...the mama warrior in me decided to go for it, despite all my fears, I'll just do it, for all motherkind

I think I'll go pick him up early today...maybe I should cancel my talk...